kiss me and i'm going to pretend that i don't want you. she's watching, you know. and i want to feel your recoil. to watch you push back your hair in discomfort. i want you to purse your lips after and feel obliged to stay that way. i want to be drunk enough to look at you and know. i want you to be drunk enough that you won't immediately change your mind upon contact. i want to meet eyes with her and go right back to you. i want it all. i want it all.