i was at a chainsmokers concert and they were playing the set of their lives. everyone was dancing. i was dancing and i saw you dancing across the hall. i felt that you were literally the most beautiful person i have ever laid eyes on and i knew this because i didn't find anything truly aesthetic. when the show ended i met you in the back and you opened your arms and hugged me. said you'd see me around. maybe at the hospital but never late at night at the bar. you had gotten a new job and we were all very proud. we were drunk friends, you laughed. i was sad to see you go and i said so. i knew you had always been with other people but i always had avoided seeing anything.

the mall where the concert was being held was shutting down. i asked to take photos with the lead acts and they said no, they were in horrible moods and wanted to leave. so i left them. felt homeless for some reason. made a bed in the middle of the mall and watched the people walk on by. when i went to go home i realized i had no money so i sneaked onto a small single subway car. the driver didn't see me get on. it was some spirited away shit, let me tell you. all the passengers were transparent and silent. i got off the train at a stop sooner then i usually would. there were many physical obstacles to get through to the exit but i knew my friend was picking me up here so i had to go. piles and piles of exotic fruit. i took photos. stacked avocados and oranges. a wall of intricately placed bananas. it was so beautiful i almost forgot they were in my way. but as i walked closer i realized they weren't really in my way and i could walk around the piles fine. it had just appeared near impossible from where i was standing at the beginning.